No more finals...now what?

In no particular order things I want to/need to do:
1) Summer Job Hunt
2) Xmas Shopping(well maybe this is first)
3) Recover
4) Prepare to do it all over again next semester
5) Golf????
6) Go home and celebrate the holidays
7) Probably some other stuff too...

The Rain

I love the rain, it makes everything wet but its so peaceful and natural. I actually look forward to rainy days. You can stay inside and be warm when it is pouring outside, sit on the couch and watch tv and listen to the sounds of the rain. It is perfect for the moment because I need to study so wont be going outside anytime soon. However, it is fun to go out in the rain too I remember playing soccer in the rain and I loved it, just letting go of the worry of getting wet and just really letting go. Being all muddy and soaked to the core when the game was over but not really caring. I've heard that you can catch a cold like that but dont really care. Things grow in the rain, its a free car wash and a clean slate falling water makes me feel lke things are starting anew, springtime and new life. We need rain and I love it.

The studying continues...

Nothing else is going on...literally nothing. Wow, this past week has really been taking forever I sleep late in hopes that the day will go faster but studying all day everyday really takes its toll on you after a while. On to the holidays though, trying to think of better times and not just make this a rant and complaining blog. However, I dont have time to Xmas shop until the 17th and I dont have time to kick it with any of my friends until then either. I cant wait though a few weeks of no actual studying, well, I probably will have to study some. Its relentless, really school starts again on Jan 11th! I guess I have to take what I can get as far as breaks go, and I get to start crim law next semester something that seems interesting as far as all the lawyer and crime shows go. for some reason I think I will be disapppointed though. I live for the days of hanging out with my friends and seeing people I truly want to see. A week and two days thats it! Peace easy.

finals!

Class is over what is next?? Well 4 finals, but there is this dead time between them where you are supposed to study hard and learn everything that you didnt during the semester. I have considered myself a good test taker but this studying is killing me, I feel like I have seen this all before and I have and I know that I need to work hard and I try, i really try but there us just something in me that wont let me concentrate for more than a few hours at a time. If i was getting pad or given a task to do that would be my sole focus but because studying is this combination of material that is synthesized into one answer I really do not see myself finding the key being a good studier anytime soon. My philosphy has always been to learn it the first time around but I realize that with material this complicated and intricate that sometimes the first time around is not enough to learn the complete semesters worth of material. However, the way that I study has always been somewhat effective, Ive made it this far havent I? Am i stressing out? Maybe a little, more bored than anything and getting the depression from other areas of life, because I feel like my activities are so one-dimensional that I am wasting my youth, or what I have left of it, on school. In a sense, its true, gotta be more upbeat and friendly, my goals for the week. Thats not me though, i mean Im friendly enough but need to be aroudn the right people t truly be myself. I need to overcome my quietness or something damn I really am wiggin out, cant sleep, cant study, fuck this...cant wait til the 17th then I get to do this over next semester

The Next Day

After the last class of the semester I cant help but look back at the past few months and believe that it was much much longer. We are subject to our surrounding s and life moves just as fast as we think it does. How can we fast forward through the things we dont like to get to the things we do? The good with the bad? Makes sense to me, punishment to get to the rewards, go through hell to get to heaven? but why does it have to be that way? Is hard work necessary to get something we truly desire? In most cases the hard work increases the percentage of getting what we truly desire yet, there are occasions in which good things come to those who do nothing to deserve their achievements, barely work in order to make their dreams become reality. I shard work necessary? Depends on what you want...but in most cases we are not perfectly suited to achieve our goals in the state in which we are born, and our goals require bettering ourselves to the amount neceassary to achieve. Right. Believe at your own risk...

Last day of class!

Is there a better feeling than completion? Completion of my first semester classes, not exams mind you but from now on its all review, so I'm counting it. Gotta finish my paper tomorrow for GLS and one class on Tues to make up for the holiday but then its study study study until exam day(s). So what has it been like? Everyone deals with the workload and stresses of law school in a different way. I think that my most effective strategy was alcohol sadly. I drank more this semester than I thought I would, mostly in moderation but there were definitely a few days lately things have been a little fuzzy. Anyways, studying all night after being at school all day it makes you self-medicate find a way to relax, I usually study in my apartment and being cooped up here all day really takes its toll. But 1L is ALMOST halfway over!! Goddamn it feels good to be ALMOST done. See ya after exams I will be hibernating in a study cave until Dec. 17th. PEACE EASY!!

Time Flies...

It has been a while since my last post. How time flies when ur...well I guess you don't have to be having fun. The feelings have been building up inside me these weeks of law school the hell that has become my life. To be fair though hell is a little strong my life is just devoid of play. All work and no play can make life c-rAAAAAzaaayyy.
Time...flies...by...no words no emotions keep me grounded make me sound smart in a world of academia. The prudent person will find parallels in all parts of life however the law is always right is always how it is, how do you find analogous situations in a perfect system, one which by its own creation and implementation does not make mistakes in the end. Appeals get corrected and if a judgment is not appealed it is assumed correct. Overturning previous law never makes the previous common law incorrect at the time it was judged. How do you find symbolic meaning in life of this system? Every law show makes lawyers out to be walking contradictions upholding a systemof law they believe is flawed but swearing by every inch of them that ethics, morals and justice outweigh all other concerns. They will do anything for what they believe is right, and I admire the convictions of those strong enough to uphold them in the face of doubt, whether they understand that doubt or not. Law school is...wow what a statement to simplify the system into a few words really feels wrong. I need to record my thoughts for the past 8 weeks to accurately describe the law school appearnace. Lately I have been more aware of the feeling out process...everyone is trying to see who is the smartest or looking around attempting to win the ego contest with answers in class, studying, and understanding of the law. This expression of mind begins to unwind the stresses I have been accumulating bur only further tensions will continue the inner agony and turmoil of free thought and constant struggle to find how its supposed to be, and what to do with that information. Really?...maybe...the best answer there is because without certainty nothing is right, living in doubt gives rise to spontaneity one of my favorite things.