Revelation

Sometimes we realize truths that we previously had written off or just been completely oblivious to. Then there comes the day we finally understand that the ignorance of our own actions is no way to live. Why live in denial? We NEED to confront our negative proclivities before then turn into destructive habits. It is an ugly business to try and face yourself in these situations, and sometimes self-deprecating activity is our only salvation. Do it too much and you may face depression, or self-esteem issues. [Wow, whatever topic I start out writing about turns complicated the moment I try to cover the entire thing.] Once you start talking about depression there are mental health issues that inevitably come into play. A downward spiral is dangerous and not until my current employ have I been so involved with mental health issues. I attempt to understand each day by looking at medical records how people with mental health problems live each day. Difficulty. Can you imagine having to work each day just to keep yourself from breaking down, try harder than anything just to complete a normal day without interference from mental instability. Think about all the different activities that would be affected. just waking up in the morning and getting out of bed with depression is a chore many succumb to. Those with panic, anxiety, or agoraphobic issues are likely afflicted with a disease that prevents regular interaction with other people and social functioning. Difficulty. That is a mild way to phrase that situation. Well, whatever the meaning of this post it should be extracted from this enigmatic rant. Good luck my friends.

summer law clerk

So I got lucky this summer and have been working for a small firm in downtown at a PAID summer law clerk position. It is not in a field I orginally anticipated joining or even knew existed really but that is besdes the point. I once heard that "if it don't make dollars then it don't make sense." I undertand the appeal of the unpaid internship position. Believe me, I have been doing them steadily since Junior year of college! Anyways, getting paid to do something is really uncomprable in the grand scheme of things in my eyes. Once someone has wanted your employ so mightily that they are paying you, out of their own pocket and especially someone who is still in school, then that speaks for itself really. So, honestly I have no complaints and could not be happier. I will also be continuing through the school year which is another added plus, and also looks good on the resume as being able to handle both a job and schoolwork. I have said it before and I will say it again, I am going to working extrememly hard but it is well worth the reward of a solid career in the future. Peace.

Do something positive everyday

Thank you Buckshot, what a great line. The concept of course is that everyday we should make ourselves a little better, or make our world a little better. If only we all had the same view of "better" and worked in unison to make that "better" universal. My con law professor calls those "scare quotes" when used to mock the usage of word that defies the original or most well-used definition. That holds true here because idealistic views about where to place our energy are just fantasies of grandeur so to speak. I would like to say something like that is realistic but honestly, freedom of choice and the "pursuit of life, liberty, and happiness" are too important. People are free to put their energy to whatever they want, but sometimes, just sometimes those values true to socialistic states where people work for the common good, usually referred to as hippie communes in modern society, look to be utopian societies. Our society has a lot of problems but boasts unique characteristics that are not possible without the system in place. I'd like to believe that we have taken the best system historically available and tweaked it until it is as close to perfect as possible, but who wants perfect. Today I was reminded that perfection is boring, and while I have gotten so far off track now than I wanted to I think of my blog as more of a stream of consciousness than a literary publication. We should do positive, because freely choose to do it! Is it likely, probably not, especially in a capitalistic society but we can always do some positive to try and get closer to it.