The Next Day

After the last class of the semester I cant help but look back at the past few months and believe that it was much much longer. We are subject to our surrounding s and life moves just as fast as we think it does. How can we fast forward through the things we dont like to get to the things we do? The good with the bad? Makes sense to me, punishment to get to the rewards, go through hell to get to heaven? but why does it have to be that way? Is hard work necessary to get something we truly desire? In most cases the hard work increases the percentage of getting what we truly desire yet, there are occasions in which good things come to those who do nothing to deserve their achievements, barely work in order to make their dreams become reality. I shard work necessary? Depends on what you want...but in most cases we are not perfectly suited to achieve our goals in the state in which we are born, and our goals require bettering ourselves to the amount neceassary to achieve. Right. Believe at your own risk...

Last day of class!

Is there a better feeling than completion? Completion of my first semester classes, not exams mind you but from now on its all review, so I'm counting it. Gotta finish my paper tomorrow for GLS and one class on Tues to make up for the holiday but then its study study study until exam day(s). So what has it been like? Everyone deals with the workload and stresses of law school in a different way. I think that my most effective strategy was alcohol sadly. I drank more this semester than I thought I would, mostly in moderation but there were definitely a few days lately things have been a little fuzzy. Anyways, studying all night after being at school all day it makes you self-medicate find a way to relax, I usually study in my apartment and being cooped up here all day really takes its toll. But 1L is ALMOST halfway over!! Goddamn it feels good to be ALMOST done. See ya after exams I will be hibernating in a study cave until Dec. 17th. PEACE EASY!!

Time Flies...

It has been a while since my last post. How time flies when ur...well I guess you don't have to be having fun. The feelings have been building up inside me these weeks of law school the hell that has become my life. To be fair though hell is a little strong my life is just devoid of play. All work and no play can make life c-rAAAAAzaaayyy.
Time...flies...by...no words no emotions keep me grounded make me sound smart in a world of academia. The prudent person will find parallels in all parts of life however the law is always right is always how it is, how do you find analogous situations in a perfect system, one which by its own creation and implementation does not make mistakes in the end. Appeals get corrected and if a judgment is not appealed it is assumed correct. Overturning previous law never makes the previous common law incorrect at the time it was judged. How do you find symbolic meaning in life of this system? Every law show makes lawyers out to be walking contradictions upholding a systemof law they believe is flawed but swearing by every inch of them that ethics, morals and justice outweigh all other concerns. They will do anything for what they believe is right, and I admire the convictions of those strong enough to uphold them in the face of doubt, whether they understand that doubt or not. Law school is...wow what a statement to simplify the system into a few words really feels wrong. I need to record my thoughts for the past 8 weeks to accurately describe the law school appearnace. Lately I have been more aware of the feeling out process...everyone is trying to see who is the smartest or looking around attempting to win the ego contest with answers in class, studying, and understanding of the law. This expression of mind begins to unwind the stresses I have been accumulating bur only further tensions will continue the inner agony and turmoil of free thought and constant struggle to find how its supposed to be, and what to do with that information. Really?...maybe...the best answer there is because without certainty nothing is right, living in doubt gives rise to spontaneity one of my favorite things.

2nd week

I have become a weekly blogger which is not a completely terrible theng but there is just not enough in my daily life to blog about. I go to school, workout/swim, eat and study, then sleep. It really is not that interesting to the outsider but everyday I learn so much about the law and myself that it seems new and almost exciting. I say almost because it is still school and nuances that accompany that association seem bland. Bar review is an interesting concept and an almost necessary end of the week event in which the busy law student can unwind. Study hard, play hard is a maxim most seem to live by. This law school thing is a marathon not a sprint I keep telling myself and I have only gotten through 2 weeks of this things with a lot left to do. Looking too far ahead can make you crazy but staying on top of your current week's work will make you sane again(and make you look like you know what you are talking about in class). On to the next week, learning and thinking, keeping my head straight, studying and studying, trying to do what I need to. See ya soon, gotta keep goin and making it work for me.

First week

Dear Diary, it is 9:30 Thursday night and I feel close enough to the end of my first week of law school to taste it. There are many reasons which I am grateful this week is ending but the most important is survival. I survived the first week! Its like going to high school again, new schools are new schools i met a few cool people and got a general idea of what the next 3 years are going to be like. 3 years...so to break it down for everyone who is wondering what my week has een like. The professors are not only entertaining but are intelligent and not afraid to show it off. There are a certiain numer of my classmates who take the opportunity to try and prove they can speak at every moment the teacher is not. They find solace in trying to raise their hand and be called on more than any other student. They read the material and want no wait need everyone to hear their opinions and hypotheticals on every issue we discuss. Not that I am annoyed or anything but I mean sometimes I am just starting to understand the concepts being explained and someone will raise their hand and beg to be called on in hopes of eliminating any semblance of a rhythm the class was getting into.
Finally kicking back and relaxing, without a care that tomorrow I will be tested on material I am not familiar with. However, as long as I do all my work and understand most of it that can't happen. Law school doesnt seem so bad so far, but it is the first week, reading the material is long and agonizing when the cases are out of date and in ancient language but it can be done. Until next week I will be studying my ass off all weekend to get ready do it all again for next week.

Busy busy

I have been busy settling in and getting aquainted to Sac my apt and everything else I need to get used to that i havent spent time on my blog at all. Hmmm...I hope I didnt keep you in suspense but orientation was cool. it really was just a way to meet classmates before actually going to class. I met some interesting and nice people everyone was really nice actually but I guess you cant expect otherwise upon first impressions. I like the campus it seems laid back and chill everyone is there for the same reason, to study of course. The work has all been assigned and i just finished my last reading of first day material so that should technically last me til wednesday. haha case briefing really is tough i would suggest anyone to start earlier than I did and brief your heart out so you have some inkling of what you will be doing in school. However, it i shard to brief without instruction on doing so and im sure every school will have different expectancies on your briefing abilities. Anyways lots of reading and briefing to come. I like how animated and exciting all the teachers seem and I am already worried about a summer internship as it seems like its getting harder and harder for those of us in the legal profession to gain that all important experience. Anyways, the apartment situation is actually giving me more grief than the school thing, well maybe about the same. Its lonely living by yourself for the most part, I had to come home this weekend to get a good nights sleep, it is hot up there in sac. Makes you think how much of your time you spend actually working and how much is used to play, now most of mine is work barely an play. Just gotta endure, 3 years left only 13 weeks left in the semester. HAHA damn wat have I gotten myself into, this is supposed to be fun! Maybe it will be...stay tuned

Final Day at Home

The time has come and it is very real now. Tomorrow I move to my new apartment and hopefully don't look back. I finished my briefs for orientation on Wednesday next week and plan to do the rest of my reading next week sometime between getting acquainted and figuring out my brand spanking new life. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow everything is always happening tomorrow or the next day. Well not for me it is all happening right now and I want it to go nice and slow 25, 26, even 27 hours to a day. That sounds like some time manipulation but really its more a frame of mind. Slowing down and savoring the experience for what it is and not agonizing over the difficulty of it all or attempting denial of where and what we are.
I might be moving out but really it is a temporary living arrangement and not one of true independence yet. However, it will be nice to have my own hours and personal space and I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited about being my own roommate. This year is going to be some kind of experience, and I am finally excited enough to begin to enjoy it.